I woke this morning finding myself in deep thought and having a talk with "god" or to "god" (as the "Creator" "Great Mystery" "Great Spirit" Jesus, Yahweh, Buddha, Mohammed, Wakntaka or whichever is the name for the Supreme being or the ONE is called to each different culture or person), does not actually answer back in the way we think anyway. I was questioning why we were here? What is the true meaning of human existence..I am still having these thoughts. Thoughts that ran through my head were not so much based on the animal part of ourselves but rather the being part of our selves as in the term Human being...so concentrating on the being..I question what is the purpose of being if the human equation is removed....rather deep thinking. Somehow this "DEEP" thinking doesn't come along for most people too often that they speak of and I was wondering if I was to seek answers to this question what "expert could I go to"? Would it be a spiritual "expert" or a psychological expert"?Or a cultural expert," perhaps a philosopher who has knowledge and is an expert in all fields.
Then I thought of purpose and paths. Most people are so caught up in the material world of being human that their being is connected to that. Most people seek love and I am one of these people too but...for most it is instinctual love that they seek to mate and to form a family of people with common experiences to share and a sense of love based on that "reality" however illusionary that might be. Being born different...I did not seek to procreate..and still then I had family and..excuse my stream of thinking..but it all is caught up in what is the purpose of life, past that of propagating a species on a human/animal level which most of the world is satisfied with...but if your born differernt.there is still the sex drive to contend with and the socialization process that each culture shares in order to have a shared "reality." We all want to be loved and love ourselves and to give love....is that a common theme of reality? and spiritual evolution..Most of the earth follow some religion which either they have grown up with or into or search out spiritual meaning that satisfies them enough to get through the physical reality of being here..why are we here....also gets into ideas of philosophy..so philosophy, religion/spirtuality, the need to procreate or to have a sex drive keep people functioning on a rather low frequency of function and keeps them docile into deeply searching for the meaning of life. Even if one is a Tibetan munk or some sort of a person who concentrates on spirituality it is the tasks of the day that keeps one going...if one has the freedom to seek this way of life. But then is the question of what culture, belief system and shared reality we all have. If I was born in Africa of course I would be African and if I was born in Italy I would be Italian...so the FREEDOM that everybody seeks is to have freedom of thought and speech and belief...but back to belief..does circumstance create a belief system or does a belief system create circumstance...if it is circumstance that creates reality...then one must have some notion that unless one chose the circumstance one has no freedom in the belief system of reality. Spiritually there doesn't seem to be a high level of evolution..all though the golden rule seems to apply to most spiritualities and organizations of religion..the dogma of such pits people against people looking at the differences in their belief system...causing war or separatism from a larger body of human beings....technology seems to have advanced faster than spirituality and the meaning of life. still stream of thought keep up with me here..there is the socialization and harsh reality to keep the human of the human being alive by means of survival.....one must have a job in order to place security no matter what illusionary reality one believes. A need for food shelter and physical needs being met. When one is engaged in survival..and what ones needs in order to be satisfied with whatever food shelter ect..that is needed is again taking away from thought of "who am I" why am I hear? What is my purpose in being here?
because as we all have jobs..we have to follow a socialized set of rules within the workplace based on keeping our jobs and thus surviving. So if you do not like your job it wears the brain out to the point of tiredness and thus it becomes more about survival than thriving and growing. If you go to college or have chosen a job you like....most people become disillusioned in their chosen field at some point because of politics ect...and are back to working for survival..and vacations and buying things that bring physical comfort..quite on a superficial level..but if one has mated and has children then there is a purpose in the suffering a job or career to provide the things for ones children so they will suffer less with material things. So there is an equation somewhere here within this stream of thought and not to exclude biology, hormones and the capacity of the human brain to think or not think...as the population grows the problems associated with survival seem to get harder..economics and jobs available to create products to satisfy or at least pacify the feelings that most people either do not have or thoughts they do not have as to the meaning of life....spirituality still has no fertile ground to evolve with if one is engaged in surviving. To mealy survive is not enough so people choose or are socialized into common experiences of joy, sports, politics, religion, art,..some choose drugs or alcohol to numb the feeling of this sense of LOST that at one time or another we all feel..the sense of loss in that I do not feel complete or whole...and as these thoughts seem to come as we grow older thus Plato and other old figures of the past..we are then beset with circumstances placed on one another as a body or culture of people...war, famine, disease, personal trauma, death of loved ones, sickness, and expectations placed on a person as culturally and socially dictated accordingly....the evolution of the spirit ,the soul, the being in the human being equation the searching for true meaning of existence is somewhat limited by personal experience. So to what point does culture and society and countries and religions and or spiritual beliefs and disciplines have to change in order for us to get any answers on the reason we are here..the reason why some are born to poverty while others are born to privilege. I think it must be easy for those who settle on an organized religion and belief system that is set in place and functions in a larger schema of reality...the more one is blinded or satisfied with conditions of survival and belief systems the more one is contented to be here and asks seldom if ever why am I hear, what does it mean to be a human being..what is my personal reason for being here? As a soul, in body on the physical plane?
I also thought if e have crossed over into questing pre conceived notions of reality and question the "GRAND illusion" of "reality"..then a person is less likely to want to participate in the controlling or popular belief system...bringing a sense of loneliness and isolation. The Human part of us has a built in need for socialization and means by which there is shared experience ect...so where does that leave me? And where does that leave the world in terms of commonalties? If everyone is an individual and yet part of a culture, society, that is not global and respectful of individuality...to the point that "what is the meaning of life and why are we here what is my, our purpose, then purpose is not a commonality shared by means of cultural differences and belief sysyems....How can we have world peace..when by means of feeling a sense of belonging is tied up in survival? As I said this is just a steam of thought. If proper housing and food were provided everyone as a human right globally..then what would people do in terms of thought.. What would their daily physical activities be? would they then evolve spiritually or would they have to evolve spiritually to get to the point of providing to each individual that which they need to fully function without working to survive. I awoke after a deep sleep and went right into deep thought. What is my purpose? How do I provide food and clothing and a roof over my head while still trying to provide a much needed need to evolve spiritually? How can I as an individual keep clear the need to seek answers when I am bogged down by a larger agreed upon "reality"? Soon I will return to the USA. In order to survive, I must find a job, then housing and survival necessities. I will be so besieged with and entrenched in this procedure. It will not be satisfying only that I feel more secure and surviving....But it will make me so tired mentally physically and emotionally..that the questions that I really need answered will be lost again in exhaustion from survival. I apologize for sharing this stream of thought....But somewhere within it lies an answer to the problems of the world and world peace.
Any intelligent response would help me to further understand a WORLD, that is coming to an end as we know it. For if there is no large scale spiritual evolution...then after world change survival will once again be the necessity that takes over.
People now starving under famine are surely not thinking about the meaning of life and spiritual evolution...they are thinking about food! How to feed their children! How to battle disease,
wonder if anyone else has thoughts such as this, my stream of writing and could advise me as to how to except my reality, while also including helping the world as a global community.